Narcissitic much?

So here's the thing. I like blogging but I hold myself back. Somewhere along the way I inherited an inner critic that says "Uh, do you really want to say that? Dumb, dumb dumb!!" Now don't get me wrong, having an inner filter is an important part of growing up. Not blabbing everything thought that flitters through your brain can be a good thing. Nobody really wants to know that the taco you had for dinner gave you the runs. Seriously.

Somehow this inner guy freaks out whenever I try to blog. Survival tactic I suppose. I have put this blog on private, maybe someday I will let it out of the closet. But for now I will try not to censor myself too much, because I need an outlet.

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Today I got an email from the president of the RSO academy that I went to last week. He (or somebody from his office) had found my Geiger Girl blog on the internet and wanted to thank me for putting a good word out there about his company.

Lucky for me, there was nobody sitting in my office because I turned an uncomfortable shade of red. Immediately I rushed to my blog, to read what I had written.

Phew!! Nothing too embarrassing. Thank goodness I was short on time and didn't write how I thought the instructor was a cute for an old guy, and that I liked his dry sense of humor.

What's the big deal anyway? Other than once I've written something it's out there. For Better or Worse. Almost like marriage, eh? But you can never truly get rid of it? How does anybody write when that's what is constantly in the back of my head?

Anywho...

The reason why I'm back on this blog, and on private. I want to document (encourage!) my trek to getting my life and body back on track. I feel like I'm being a narcissist though, as if anybody would want to read this. Critic, schmitic. So I'm doing this for me. It'll may end up being dull, but I'm going for it anyway!

And if I can ever figure out how to blog via crackberry I may even blog more than I expect. So this is me, being me. Scary thought, eh!?

Sadly, yes.

Go for it MJ, you can dooooo eeet!